I’ve been on such a Taco Bell kick lately. I’ve always loved them but I’m ordering in from there for breakfast for my roommate and me so it’s gonna be a fiesta. 😉 Lol. I really gotta slow down so I can watch my figure. I definitely don’t want to get fat!
Bobby, my fiance, has spent every night over here this week and I loved it. I hated to see him leave today. I hate sleeping alone at night, just because my head races at night and I don’t sleep well alone. I can get overwhelmed at night when I’m laying there in silence with my head revisiting trauma from my past and worrying about the future. It’s been going on since 2017 and while it’s improved a lot, it can still haunt me a lot. But with someone laying next to me at night when I sleep, those worrisome thoughts are put to sleep, and then so am I.
I was SO frustrated when I went to the doctor on Monday and they refused to treat me. I guess camming has taken somewhat of a toll on my body because my arms are constantly hurting and sore, no matter how many Tylenol or Ibuprofen I take. I was honest with the doctor about the amount of pain I’m experiencing in both arms. I’ve been treated before it before a couple of times. At first, it was a pinched nerve. Then my my ligaments and stuff were inflamed. Now they’re saying it’s muscular. I get a different doctor and a different opinion every time. The first two times I was treated, I received a shot in the arm for pain and a prescription for inflammation to treat the pain. This time they refused to treat me or give me a shot for the pain or even meds to treated it. They thought I would abuse the prescription which I’ve never had a history of doing before! I know I took more Tylenol than I should have, but not enough to do any damage or to harm myself. I’m not that stupid and know when to stop. Anyway, the doctor called yesterday and finally decided I’m not some fucking junkie and called in a prescription for my arms. I just need to make time to go get it and this is also the dreaded weekend when I need to do laundry which I have been putting off long enough. Ugh!
