Hey. I woke up pretty early this morning (which is rare for me) and I couldn’t go back to sleep so I just got up. Now I am bored as hell and just sitting around. I am still not in the best of moods. Last night was really rough, I couldn’t stop crying and freaking out and I was shaking pretty bad. I just want to hide in my room all day. I don’t want to be seen.
Why is it that when something decides to go wrong in your life, everything else has to go down the shitter with it? It all happens at once. It really sucks, to say the least, and there isn’t much you can do about it. Needless to say, my life hasn’t been too great lately.
I am sick of people in general and how they make me feel. I am sick of not having any ambition for anything anymore. I just don’t like doing anything at all. It’s like I gave up on myself a long time ago and I could care less what becomes of me. Blah, depressing. And I’ve been experiencing a non-stop headache since yesterday morning. Pain relievers aren’t working. Hmm, maybe I need to eat.
The only good things I can see in my life right now are Brent visiting in March and getting my tax return. I can’t go out and blow it but it will be nice to get it back.
